Changing Times

A recent status on my facebook account came about when I was updating the personal information section, and it says that - These days I feel as though i'm sat on the outside looking in on something that I never thought would be happening, and thinking, is this really me.
The reason I have mentioned this is because that's how my life seems to have become over the past few years and I have, especially lately, been found sat and thinking as to how things have changed, what's been happening, and why.
For those that don't know, my brother died what will be 9 years ago this November and it hit myself badly, so much so that depression (a word so often used for all the wrong reasons) hit quite badly and for some, unbeknownst reason, I turned to writing for release and salvation.
Fast forward nearly a decade and I find things totaly different now as to what it was then. Even today, I was out walking with the Mrs when the conversation somehow got round to my brother and I happened to say that it was hard to imagine as to what he would be like today. He was 22 when he dies, and would have been 31 this year. It also makes you think about yorself as well, what you have done in life, why and how everything has progressed.
Going back to my initial statement, that is really what's been happening and I cannot explain it but times have changed, and for the better, and I am more than grateful for the opportunities that have come my way. Now my life has some meaning to it and it's only took me three decades to get here.